If you’re going to edit a picture of band/artist please make sure that you actually know how to use photoshop…. oh yeah that’s right, photobucket. Over-saturation, brightness, and over-sharpness is NEVER cute. Good job on ruining a perfectly decent picture!　

If you base who you are friends with based on any one specific superficial factor ( gender, ethnicity, clothes, etc), lol. Just lol.

I’ve been really paying close attention to everyone that I surround myself lately. Mostly because I’m trying to figure out who my real friends are and who are not. One of the main things that I’ve realized is that the main reason that I like the friends the most that I do is because they are completely 100% nonjudgmental. They are the ones who are open to befriending everyone and will be just that. A friend. You don’t have to look, behave, or think a certain way in order for them to associate with you. They are accepting. They are the one’s who I am closest too because they genuinely care about me, not the way that I look or act. They are true friends. Because when you base your friendships on one specific factor, then honestly, you’ll never have one true friend. Because you’re not really friends with the person because you like them, you’re friend with them because of that one thing. I understand that you could get to know them and find out that you have more in common than you thought and that’s great. But that’s not going to happen all the time. It all boils down to no one is perfect. Just because someone likes the same music that you do, it doesn’t mean that they are going to be a very caring and dependable friend. Same goes for everything else. Essentially, these people are searching for the perfect person in their eyes, and sorry to break it to ya, but that’s never gonna happen. Maybe if your broaden your horizon if interest in people, you wouldn’t feel so forever alone all the time. 

Victorious has gained a ton more of respect points from me. The whole Tori/Beck scene was brilliant. I love how Tori stayed loyal and respectful to Jade even though Jade does nothing but try to make her miserable. Especially since right before that Jade took her position in the Platinum Music Awards (*spoiler*). This show continues to demonstrate some of the greatest issues in teenage society and provides an example of what’s right. I couldn’t ask for anything more. This is why this show is and will always be my absolute favorite. Dan Schneider is one magnificent guy. I really really hope that his greatness is recognized with an award of some sort.

I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. I hate gnats. 　

This school year has been bitter-sweet. Lots of stress and personal issues but I have made many more good friends than ever before. Especially in orchestra. My friends that I’ve met through that class are the ones who hold the strongest places in my heart and are the ones who I am completely myself around. It’s all starting to make sense now. As my emotional and social life at home failed, my friendship with each of my orcdorks progressed. And eventually, each of them became closer as well. Whenever I’m having a bad day, they unconsciously make my happy come out of hiding. I especially relate this to one specific person. Everytime that I had an argument or got irritated with my dad, I’ve noticed that I and this person become exponentially closer. The simplist way I can put this is that my Orc family has taken the place of my real family in my heart. I have become entirely too dependent on them. I don’t think this is good. School’s out in 4 weeks and I have no clue how I will function without seeing them for 3 months and possibly not seeing 2 of them ever again( I’m REALLY hoping this isn’t so). I don’t think any of them realize how important they truly are to me..

So right now, I’m just laying in my bed and I feel like I’m on fire. It’s so hot that I can’t fall asleep. It’s already late too. Normally at this point i’d go get a cup of ice water but my mother keeps waking up and I know she’ll yell because she doesn’t like it when I’m not sleep at this time regardless of the reason…. I’m in a situation where I can’t win.

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I’ve noticed that there is no real neutrality anymore. There’s always gonna be that group of people who will love and praise a certain object or event. And then, there is always gonna be that group of people who will hate on that certain object or event every chance that they can. Most of the hate is served in the form of calling the lovers band-wagoners, when in reality all those haters are band-wagoners too. Very hypocritical when you think about. Its hilarious. 　

Why can’t a real life Howl just find me in need of being rescued on some side street?! I would run away with him anywhere at any time!

Embrace your insecurities and get the f*** over them. 

Realize that they are just b o d y p a r t s. 

Something this simple shouldn’t stop you from doing what you want to do and from being happy! Most of the time, other people don’t notice your specific insecurity either. I absolutely hate my legs because I have tiny stretch marks on the back of my knees along with a few other blemishes. This is why I always wear stockings under my shorts. But today I didn’t and I got lots of compliments! It’s like people didn’t notice anything at all! Once you learn to get over your insecurities, your confidence will boost up so much more than it currently is!

My ideal room would be Prima Donna all the way. It’d have 3 full pastel pink walls, 1 pink and white striped. My comforter would be either pastel blue or pastel yellow with cutesy pink floral print and lace somewhere on it. I’d have pink pillows and sheets on it to compliment my walls too. Curtains would be in there too, I have no clue what color though right now. All furniture would be white with either silver or gold accents… or that really really pale wood. If possible, I’d get a vanity with one of those fancy circular mirrors. All my Hello Kitty decor that’s in my room now would stay. I’d have a B&BW pink chiffon scent wall flower in there too because it’d have to smell cutes too. The final touch that would make my dream could true would be a ceiling fan with lights that look like a chandelier…or a chandelier fan. Either one would work.

The Going Second performance at Legacy really hit home with me. I can think of a few people off the top of my head who’s lives literally do revolve around drugs and who’s actions are either a result or consequence of them. Only two extremely terrible thing has happened so far but nothing life-threatening/altering. But at the rate that these select people are going, it’s won’t be long until it does begin to spiral out of control. I love how all the guys of G2 are living a drug-free life in a society where drug and alcohol use ( and overuse) are becoming more and more common every day. And how they are making an attempt to inspire teenagers to do the same by teaming up with Music Makes Music and traveling to different schools to spread the word. It’s about time that a band encourages people to do positive things with their life instead of ‘living the life of a rockstar’. I know for sure, that I WILL ALWAYS stay away from all drugs all together. Because #soberissexy c;